From darkness to bright light, the deepest darkness is where 1 have been. Darkness, for me, was all that 1 knew. It was the place I felt the best being in. The trembling in her voice was so real as listened.
Even I could feel the darkness and the fear that resides there in this moment While I was there, I was someone else. And that someone else felt like me. How was I to know that this was only parts of me and the masks that I was wearing for those who I needed to be wearing them for? How was I to know that when crawled, and I mean crawled out, from behind the veil of the darkness, there would be nowhere to be found? it took me so long to get to where I was. And it took me longer to ger to where I am.
For what no one can understand, as we are all unique beings, is that not even I recognize this as a dark place. They didn’t see it as a dark place either. now could they? Most of them have never been there. So it was without explanation that 1l remained hidden in the shadows. Not long ago, that’s where I was. But 1 am fortunate enough to say that was not a place I knew that I would forever be able to stau. It didn’t happen overnight, but all l knew is that it felt right.
As slowly stepped away, I had to hold myself so tight: Keeping it together is all l
needed to do. So, I held on with all my might. This loneliness I had to heel, this darkness that I knew was real. I needed myself to follow, to feel that this was something that existed. But now is the time not to resist it. The opportunity to slowly step away had presented itself to me. And in this moment. I had to trust that if, I chose to jump into the light, I, too, would be set free.
For now, I’m healing in a way that allows me to be my best self, ‘thank yourself for coming to the rescue.’ Thank you for helping me to stand tall when I felt like I could fall. Thank you for showing me the way every day and for showing me the light. Even if it was a flicker, this flicker turned into a bigger and brighter shine. I started to embrace this light that grew to be mine. All this time, I never realized that I was the one who was the light. It was always a part of me that I could not see. For when I looked in the mirror, I was too busy feeling blue and not taking the time to look at you. So today, I stand tall, knowing that I may still fall, but I look in the mirror and I see my shine.
And that, to me, sends chills up my spine. This shine is bright, and it is my light. This is what I hold on to with all my might.
You have always been there for me. So bright and shiny. How is it I could not see? I could not see you. Well, I see you now, and I’m proud to say I am here for you. I have always been here for you, as you have been here for me, and together, we have been set free. Together we will glow, and as we glow and as we grow, we both know that we have always been one.
I have gone from darkness to bright light. I am the light, and my light is bright.